It's funny how come i don't cry though i miss you and ever since you left me.. I've figured maybe it's because I'm too used to people leaving me.. or probably I've cried too many night and too many times before. When I was younger. I have probably grown numb to this similar pain and this similar kind of sadness. You can get used to a certain kind of sadness, y'know? I'm surprised I'm so much stronger than I think I am. Yesterday night, had a dream about my brother. Dreamed that he was lost and I cried so bad.. I really can't imagine if that really happens in real life. Even in my dream, i could feel the extreme pain already. So, I've been thinking about my current life and here are some goals which I have set for myself:

1. Grow closer to God, focus solely on him.
2. Achieve a nice figure.
3. Achieve good results.
4. Grow closer to my good friends, form a stronger relationship with them and spend more time with them.
5. Spend more time with my family. (brother, dad, mom, grandma, sister)