Tuesday, 22 November 2011

Helplessness blues

I am so upset and disappointed. It's over the same person again, my best friend. Our relationship has gone from a scale of 10/10 to a scale of 3/10 now. Words can't describe how hurt i am feeling right now. Why must i always be the sensitive one? The one who always cares more? I am sick of feeling this way. Let me be in your shoes. This way, i probably won't feel so hurt right now. The fact is that i care way too much. I have grown so fond and attached to you over the years. I miss you so damn much. I miss those times we spent together be it happy or sad. I wish i am back in secondary school now so i can relive those memories with you once again.

The painful fact now? you have forgotten all about me. I am sick of making the effort when you are not even trying. To keep our friendship as close as ever. You promised me. But now, it seems like your current classmates in school are much more important compared to me. Why? What went wrong? Different circumstances? Yes, I know that. But why is it that i see other people maintaining that closeness with their best friends but not us? What exactly went wrong? You are changing. You don't realize it because you are often so caught up with your school work, family, current new friends etc. Have you forgotten about me?

You told me we would remain in brackets forever. You promised me we would never ever drift apart. Even after going to different schools. But it is happening in our very own eyes. I am sad. So terribly sad. I am hurt, once again. Yet you have no idea. No idea your best friend is so hurt because of you. You might say I am sensitive. But what you don't know is I treasure our friendship way too much. More than you ever could imagine.

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