So I've started working and it can get really tiring and boring but the pay's good so I'm gonna carry on and I need to earn some money as well as find something to keep me occupied and I met him today we watched ted he said he still loves me and I believed him but the saddest thing in the whole wide world is that we can't be together yet so I'm still sad and yesterday and today was the worst don't know why those past happy memories kept replaying in my head over and over again so I couldn't take it and I went to find him today. Today was also my first pilates lesson it was tedious it was tiring but I got through it and I came home to find a packet of ritter sports rum and rasin hazelnut chocolate for me. Turned out to be from my brother and it was really nice the chocolate and of course really sweet of him to buy me that packet of chocolate he even threw the wrapper for me and put the remaining of chocolate left in the fridge thank you brother I know you will not read this but I love you.